On Clean Eating and Happiness

Clean eating feels so normal now and I am happy that it does. I mean, it has to.. it's been four months since I started. If you don't know why I'm "clean eating" in the first place, it's a simple story really. I decided to get rid of my terrible eating habits because of two reasons: a) my mom had surgery because of gallstones and that made me paranoid, b) I went up to 125 lbs. when my average is around 115-118 and that made me even more paranoid. And so, since then, weekday mornings have been all about smoothies and quinoa, baked chicken breasts and greens. But to not forget the joy of binge-eating, I eat all-out on weekends (starting Friday evening). While I don't exercise because I am medically unable to, I do walk during every possible chance I get.

Some people will say that I am cray cray for doing what I do. I am going to tell you that the cray works. I suggest clean eating to those who want to be lighter on their feet, feel cleaner, A LOT healthier and happier, and yes, lose weight. I guess I can say that I am on a calorie-restriction diet, but that's not to be mistaken for fasting. I eat just as much, but I carefully choose what I eat, and what I put in my food.

These foods have become staple:

• quinoa
• blueberries
• spinach
• chicken breast
• paprika
• flax seeds
• 0%/Greek yogurt
• almond milk
• himalayan pink salt
• olive oil

I don't have a set meal-plan to suggest to anyone but Googling works fine. People will say different things, so I suggest looking for one with the most positive feedback. Also, I am currently on a 2-day cleanse, which can be found here. I am on my second day and the only difference it has with my regular food intake is that I don't eat quinoa. When you start to feel hungry, opt for water or lemon-infused water.

It's not as bad as it seems, trust me. I am a total foodie and I am telling you, it's quite fun. Eat clean on weekdays, look forward to the weekend where you can eat, eat, eat whatever you want.

P.S. Even on weekdays, if you feel like eating chips, ice cream, pop, etc, go for it. Just know what you're getting yourself into, and make up for it if you want. I still say your happiness is above everything else. Clean eating is simply an alternative.

Little Moments x Life

We all go through a "phase" in our lives where we think of what has become of us and go, "Am I happy or not?". Or, we try to label ourselves as either successful or a failure. Unfortunately for me, today I have decided that I am, in fact, a failure. It seems hypocritical to hear this from someone who strives to find positivity in everything, doesn't it? I hate to break it to you folks, but I am still human. I love helping others build their success stories but I just can't seem to get mine together.

Don't get me wrong; I have an amazing family, a very loving girlfriend, good grades, but that just isn't enough. I don't know. I feel like I could have done more in the past three years. Must I say I regret not having done what I should have? Yes and no.

Am I a failure? Maybe.

But it isn't too late to become something more. I just hope life lets me catch up.

I find myself very happy when I am around people. I guess that's just innate of us. But when I find myself alone, I overthink things. I look back and blame myself for things I have done, should have done, and might not do. It's quite complicated.

Bottomline is, I think too much. And it isn't the healthy kind.

School, the future, jitters

I have been at a loss for words for the longest time. I don't know why. It could be because I am often overwhelmed by my thoughts and the many things that are happening that I can't seem to pick the right words, the perfect ones that equate to the emotions that come with them. Then I forget I ever planned on writing about them. And I am only left with thoughts and grand memories that I feel will be blogged eventually.

Right now, I feel like telling you that I just paid my registration deposit for next semester. It may seem very odd, reading something so irrelevant and out of the blue, but I am just excited. I register for my classes on the 17th, and if I do that successfully, then I am a semester closer to getting my AA degree. AWWW YEAH. I am desperate to get into a particular writing class - a priority, a first concern, a transcendence - and I am hoping to get the same professor I had last spring. But I really do not want to expect anything since we (or I) know how woopty doo well that went last time. Although honestly, I am very much hopeful. I am desperate. I am actually left with no choice.

I feel desperate for so many things right now. But I can't complain with what I have either.

How are you?